Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Passion Project Reflection


~ Never Stop Searching ~

~ 4 Passion Within You ~


The movie was awesome and I encourage others to watch it for sure! 

It’s truly wonderful to see real life student’s wondering the same things we are and whether we are doing these thing’s correctly or not as we are too. I mean I’ve felt for the longest that I’ve been crazy to change my major and not go with what my family have told me to do. I feel I’ve already wasted 2 year’s trying what they think is right for me but I just hate it as well as I have a phobia in so many of the things in the major there telling me to do. I’ve been killing myself with guilt for the longest that I’ve changed my major and I honestly feel it has been holding me back in many aways. I mean I keep saying I’m not doing the major they want me to do and I haven’t continued to take classes in that major but that doesn’t mean I’m able to move forward in anything I truly want to do. I’ve been scared to do so because they keep telling me and looking down at me as if I’m a failure for not liking there major choices for me. Keep in mind I haven’t even openly told them that I changed my major nor have I changed it on any of my school documents yet. I’m honestly too afraid of failing in there eyes which it just sad. In return what I’m doing is failing over all in school I feel. I can’t stress how much the video has opened my eyes and how it make me feel. I’ve been feeling like a failure for not doing what they keep on forcing me t do everyday. I mean all there comments towards me are extremely negative and that’s why I haven’t even told them anything. Yet again what would I tell then anyway since I’m at a lost for my own Passion. This makes me even more sad. However after watching this video I feel a little better but not really. Well at least now I don’t have to tell myself I’m crazy for doing what I’m doing since I’m not the only person in this world looking for my true Passion in life and that it’s OK not to follow pre chosen choices.

I’m on a quest to find my Passion and I’ve been on this quest for some time now and I’ve been feeling sad and lost since I haven’t found it yet. I have honestly spent some much money looking for it and still haven’t found it. However I told myself that I wasn’t going to give up no matter what it would take me. Money or no money I wasn’t going to stop looking for my Passion. I have waited too long and worked too hard not to find my Passion thus far. I knew when I started my quest that I wasn’t happy with the major that was being forced upon me and that I was going about it the wrong way and my counsellor even told me not to listen to my family since they weren’t going to be the one who has to do the job for the rest of there life. I would be me and I must enjoy what I’m doing and that I must be Passionate about it. I wish I had listened to her in the first place then just maybe I would be almost done with school and not still feeling stuck. Well I keep telling myself no point in dwelling in the past now because its not like I will get that time back ever. I just must move forward on my quest to find my true Passion. I pray and hope to god it comes to me soon what I’m truly passionate in. I feel I’m so close to it but I’m holding myself back for some odd reason. Wish I knew how to figure it out but unfortunately I don’t so I just keep moving forward hoping to be struck with Passion lightning one day. Sounds funny to say that I know but if you truly think about it that’s what we all hope and long for that we find that light, that miracle, that shock to our mind and heart that brings our Passion right in front of our heads, minds, feeling, and eyes. That we just know and now our journey to our Passion truly begins for once and for all. I wish there will be a day I too get to see that myself in my own life. 

As for the video I liked it so much that I uploaded it on my Facebook page too. I know many people that are in school and/or who are in search for there Passion. There not sure where there going or what there doing but what they do know is there looking for something they enjoy doing and would love doing for the rest of there lives. Just as I am here doing the same in search for a Passion unknown.

Thank you for sharing this video with us Mr. McFarland! =)






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